13.5 Days...

I awoke today and DID NOT want to go to work. I had such an amazing weekend, I wasn't ready to be in the real world again. My time in the Awakening Services and driving the shuttle has really stirred my heart for the Lord again. Not that I had fallen away, but I am soft-hearted again in a way I have been longing for. I am hungry for more and more..it's an incredible feeling to be here. I've wanted to be here for SO long...

However, I am here. I got up and want to work and had a GREAT day. Okay, so I had to wear an MU shirt to fulfill a deal I had made with my students, but it really made my day fun. I got picked on a lot, but EVERYONE smiled, so it was okay.

13.5 days until break. Then I can be in the GPR and Awakening all I want! :-)

Not that I'm counting or anything. *grin*



Today I awoke and wondered what God had in store for me today. I figured it would be a typical Sunday. Instead, it was a day of surprises.

First, I went to FCF and Jon Thurlow led worship. It was INCREDIBLE. He did my favorite songs, including my favorite new song during the offering! It was WOOOONNNNNNDDDDDDEEEEERRRRRRRRFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUULLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!

The sermon was really good, and it has made me think all day. I like that!

After the sermon, there was prayer time, and I saw this little girl go up for prayer. I knew I was supposed to pray for her. I went up, and it was fun. I love to pray for people! :-) It was GREAT.

After that, I went back to my seat and entered in. I was having fun, with Jon leading worship. Then a gal named Joy walked up and told me that I was on her heart and she asked if I was a shuttle driver. I said, "Yep." So, she said she was blessed by my enthusiasm and wondered if she could pray for me, and then for me to pray for her! How cool is that? I love it when God does that! What a surprise!

After that, I was walking to my car, and this gal walked with me, asking me if I was a shuttle driver. I said, "Yep." And we started up another conversation. Hum, no wonder God told me to drive the shuttle, I am meeting all sorts of people!

Tonight I went to drive the shuttle, and met all sorts of people. One guy got on one of my first shuttles and shared his testimony with me of how God has delivered him from drug abuse. Just from talking to him, I knew he had had a rough life. I was glad he was at IHOP instead of out doing other things, or as he said, he would be in jail right now if it wasn't for God! AWESOME!

There was a gentleman that was sitting outside FSM, and he appeared to be wrestling. I really had a heart for him, so Debra (another shuttle driver) and I prayed for him via the radio. I love praying for people with other people! That is FUN!

The evening was really fun, as I nicknamed FSM "The River", since we're having an outpouring there right now. And, I nicknamed the Prayer Room, "Home." For SO LONG I have felt more at home in the Prayer Room than anywhere else, so I named it home. Debra started doing that too. It wasn't anything huge, but it was fun to do.

Perhaps the coolest surprise was at the end of my shift tonight when Papa Bear thanked me for driving. He always thanks us for driving, and at first I blew it off saying, "Ah, you know I love to drive." To which he gave me a very heartfelt Thank You for driving. Papa Bear is kind of the father of all of us driving, and his words truly blessed me. Of course, I said something like, "You're a blessing too," not trying to make a big deal out of it, but it was the highlight of my day.

I believe that it is human nature to try to fit in where God puts you and to try to figure things out. And I believe I'm getting there, and I am so very thankful that God put me on the shuttles. This weekend has been a lot more fun because of that.

Go figure, God would know what I need before I do. *wink*


Shuttle Snippits!

I have THOROUGHLY enjoyed driving this week, and tonight was really fun. We had 3 new drivers and 3 returners, and we had a lot of fun. Sunshine, one of the drivers, carries the joy of the Lord and was making us laugh quite a bit.

I've also come up with my own term for when someone goofs and announces something wrong on the radio. I now call them "Brain Freezes." Of course, last night two of our drivers were calling them "senior moments." I corrected them and said that couldn't be the case because I'm too young to be having those already! Then I was corrected and told that they were seniors and they should be able to call them senior moments because they had earned that. That made me pause and think. Here I was trying to make them feel younger than they really are, and they were proud of being in that stage of their life. Kinda makes ya think, doesn't it?

As for me, I'm sticking to "Brain Freeze." It sounds better and seems to make the passengers chuckle. :-)

My last trip of the night was really special to me. I have been battling a headache all evening and just wanted to not talk and worship for a couple minutes. (It's about a 5 minute drive from one building to another.) And, so I had Jon Thurlow's CD on, and I turned it up a little (not much, remember I have a headache) and turned one of my favorite songs, and the whole shuttle sang on our drive back. I'll never forget that. It was a slow song, and everyone sang out. None of us sang very good, as we were all a tad bit off key, and none of us would ever been on a stage singing in front of people. But, I know that God enjoyed hearing it! :-)

Oh, and I now have Zaccheus' hat! I wonder if he'll notice me wearing it! *grin*

Fun....especially on the shuttle!

Blessings from the Little People

I haven't even been at my new school a year, and kids are blessing me with M&M dispensers! How cool is that? :-) I am loved VERY WELL by my little people! Woop!


Back in August I started driving the shuttle at IHOP-KC. (I'm giving a little background for those of you who don't read the blog everyday.) At IHOP-KC, we have two buildings and not enough parking at the big building for everyone, so we shuttle people from one parking lot to another. We also shuttle interns and students from the Prayer Room to FSM, as student housing is located right next to the Prayer Room.

So in August, I met NewJerseyKid. He's a young man who was living out of his car in August. He is a really cool guy who moved himself to IHOP after leaving New Jersey. He wanted God so badly that he was living out of his car and relied completely on God to give him ALL his needs. Food, clothing, EVERYTHING.

I immediately liked this kid. In time, he shared a little bit more about how he landed here, but not much. Honestly, his history didn't matter to me, his heart for God is what matters.

So, I started praying for him. Daily. I prayed for shelter, food, and ESPECIALLY for God to bring along guy friends who would share in this journey with him. I really believe that guys need guys in stuff like this, so that they can get what they need in a healthy way.

A little while later, he was on my shuttle again and I asked about his living situation and he told me that for about a month and a half he was out of his car, but he was back in it at that time. I'll be honest, I saw his car, and it was clear he was living out of it. It made me pray that much harder for him.

Well, I'm glad to report that he is now working at Burger King and living in a house! Praise God!

I went to drive tonight, and I prayed I would get to see him. And I did! (It's been a while since I've seen him.)

He is doing well, and still working at Burger King.

I'm so happy for this kid, and in a weird kind of way, I'm proud of him. He's taken a situation that could have been really bad for him, he prayed and God is taking care of him! I love that!

Tonight he said he would like to meet a nice girl. I told him I would pray that he would have the spouse God has for him. So, for those of you who pray, let's all pray that he meets the gal who God has for him! This kid has so much potential, I pray that he holds on for the spouse God has for him and he doesn't give in to the temptations of this world.

I know God has a call on this guy's young life.

I'll keep ya posted, as I see him on my shuttle! Woop!

Shuttling God's Kids!

A Day of Thanks....

Happy Turkey Day! I pray that each of my readers had a BLESSED day with family and friends today.

I did.

After spending a wonderful afternoon with my wonderful family, I came home home and took Jay for a walk. After the walk, I ate dinner and headed to the Prayer Room.

At 8:00, they had a small version of the Awakening Services that have been going on here. I grinned ear-to-ear the whole time. I mean, it was Thanksgiving Night, and the Prayer Room was PACKED of people who were seeking the Lord. And while it's hard to explain, it made my day complete. I was surrounded by people that are like me. And that made me smile.

So, on the drive home I started thinking about all the things I'm thankful for, and figured I would post all the things I can think of that I am Thankful for this year. (These are not in any particular order.)

1. I'm now not in D'FUNK that I was in last year at this time. Last year was the hardest Holiday Season for me, so this year is MUCH BETTER. It's only because of God that I am who I am today. And, I was thinking tonight at service that without God in my life, I would still be in a funk and in a battle that I could not win. Thank You God for loving me so well! I like me, and am thankful that I am living here now! :-)
2. My family is AWESOME. I am supported 110% in all I do. Even in the IHOP-KC part of my life, that I'm sure seems a bit odd to my family. I am one blessed gal. I couldn't have asked for a better family.
3. My friends. Ms. H., Kim, SingingGal, Laura, and Karen have become near and dear to me in the past year. I'm blessed that God put them in my little corner of the world. Even though I don't live near them now, I still keep in touch with them via Facebook and email. Thank You God for my friends!
4. IHOP-KC. For seven years I prayed to be here, and be a part of IHOP-KC. I love it here!!! I love being in a place that has 24/7 LIVE worship. I'm at home!!! The Shuttle Ministry has also been the best thing I have been a part of since I've moved here. I'm making friends, having fun meeting people from all over the world, and often get to pray for them! It's AWESOME!
5. Jay. He's been the best friend I needed here. He makes me smile everyday. I am loved unconditionally by the little guy. I LOVE THAT! He's cute too!
6. Facebook. It has made my transition here a lot easier and helped me stay in touch with friends where I used to live. It's been a blessing!
7. My Townhome. I prayed for a 2 bedroom, 1.5 bath, and got a 3 bedroom, 2.5 bath! I've already hosted many visitors, and pray I get to host many more! Plus, it's half a mile from Raintree Lake! Woop! Thank You, God!
8. My finances. For the first time in 5 years I am not responsible for filling a Propane Tank! :-) I have money in savings, whereas the past 5 years it was simply going to the Propane Tank! I'm not rich, but I am financially secure. THANK YOU, God!
9. My car. It runs well and gets me where I need to go without problems. Not everyone is that blessed!
10. My job. While I'm enjoying the days off this week, I really do like my job. I miss my friends where I was, but am making a home for me here. I love that.
11. Sleep. This week I get to sleep in. I love sleep. SWEET! (By the way, you couldn't pay me money to be at a store at 4am for shopping tomorrow! NO. WAY.)
12. Roxie, Rudy, Indy, Sidney, and Teddy. While Jay is MINE, I love all the furry kids in my life. They are all a blessing.
13. My health. Thanks to medication, I am in great health and rarely miss work! That hasn't always been true, so I feel blessed to be in good shape now!
14. Tooldude. While I miss him greatly, God taught me a lot through him. Lessons that I only would have learned through him. Thank You, God.

I know there are many more, but I hear my bed calling my name!


Shuttle #4

Tonight I went to IHOP-KC to drive for the Awakening Service. Papa Bear was in the office, and asked me to be Lead Driver. That made me smile. Not that it means much, I mean you make sure everyone's okay, help explain the routines, field random questions from the drivers, and help everyone fill up with gasoline. I simply smiled. :-)

It was really fun. Not so much because I was lead driver (which was cool, but not the main highlight) but because I watched a group of new drivers start joking and laughing and having fun while we drove. That was my goal, to make people smile. I know I made most of them smile, which was fun. We had almost all new drivers, so it was fun!

I was able to have my favorite shuttle too! Shuttle #4 is my favorite because it's the one that I had the very first night I drove, and it's still special to me. I realize it's not the exact one, as we got new shuttles recently, but it's still my favorite! :-)

At 9:00 we had a shift change, and Zaccheus started driving. Zaccheus is an intern that makes me laugh a lot because he's joking and laughing all the time. Tonight he was on a mission to give everyone a code name. That's kind of his thing. It is always hilarious to hear him come up with the names. I am still Pleasant, Slim gave me that name and I refuse to change it. And it's funny to hear all the new names coming out of the shuttles! Awesome!



At my school we have two Special Education Classrooms. We have the Learning Center, which is my classroom, as well as a LifeSkills Classroom. In the LifeSkills room, we have a girl named Mary. (Not her real name, obviously) Mary is a fourth grade girl with Severe Autism. As most of you know, I have a HUGE heart for Autistic Kids, and I was intrigued from Day #1 with Mary.

About 6 weeks ago, she discovered me in the hall. We became instant friends, and she was INCREDIBLY drawn to my limp. I mean, she would hold my hand and walk with me as I would walk her to class or wherever she was headed at the moment. The whole time, she would stare at my left foot. She really wanted to understand the limp. Her aide stated it was only a matter of time before she would imitate the limp and she was trying to figure out how to do it. I would smile and let her figure it out.

Well, yesterday she took my hand, and we started walking. She just wanted to walk, and it was during my plan time, so I just walked with her. Her aide told me that we needed to go to her regular classroom so that she could give something to the kids. So, Mary and I walked hand-in-hand to her classroom.

On the way back, Mary stopped and looked at me. Then she looked at my foot. She grabbed my ankle and made my foot straight. I just looked at her, and she said, "walk". (She's pretty much a non-verbal, so that was cool in itself!) I started to walk, but it's incredibly tough for me to take more than a couple steps like that without my ankle hurting. I tried really hard though because Mary really wanted me to walk straight. We made it half-way to the LifeSkills Room, and she stopped and tried to move my foot again because I had gone back to the limp. I tried explaining it all, and it didn't matter, Mary wanted it straight. I looked at her and said, "Thanks Mary." She smiled, took my hand, and we continued to the LifeSkills Room where I let go of her hand and she went into her classroom.

Later on, I was walking down to get my 6th graders ready to go home for the day, and a kindergardener came out of the Nurse's office, and said, "This is how you walk." And, he proceeded to give me a walking lesson! (I didn't even know the kid!) I played along, making both of us smile, and in the end he walked off saying, "It's not that hard!"

I stopped and smiled.

Walking Lessons.

As I've pondered these experiences, I have come to one conclusion.

God wants us just to take one step at a time.
Just one.
And to smile with each step we take.



...you just don't know how God uses you in other people's lives. I just got off the phone with someone who let me know what a difference I've made in her family's life, and I've only known her since school started. It made me smile. I'm just being me, and God has used me in her life, as well as her family's life. It's God, not me. But it's cool to know that God is using the talents and gifts He gave me to touch other people.

That's the point, isn't it?




Prayin' for People!

I tell ya what, today was AWESOME! While I could write a book about how good today was, I'm going to limit myself to my favorite part of the day.

I went with a couple friends to church this morning. It was a good service, with really good worship.

After service there was a prayer time, and I was asked to pray for my friend, which was really fun. And a little while later, my friend asked me to come over and help pray for an individual. THAT WAS COOL! I can't explain what happened because you just can't put into words what God does sometimes, but I tell ya what, IT WAS FUN!

I LOVE praying for people. Love. It. I had a word from the Lord for both of them, which made it even more fun!




I went and served the Lord by driving the shuttle tonight, which was fun. It was weird at first having so many drivers, but it was easy once we had a system figured out. We weren't busy, but weren't slow either. It was fun. I was glad I agreed to drive tonight.

After that I went into service and soaked. I did pray over some people and God gave me words for them, which was fun too, but I mostly soaked. My favorite time was when we went into worship. I smiled the whole time. It made me miss the prayer room a bit less. :-)



It's the weekend!




I finally get a haircut tomorrow!


I get to soak at IHOP and then drive the shuttle tomorrow!


I have gotten to watch some shows, enter in with the webcast, and cuddle with the pup!

It doesn't take much to make me happy!


I Recently...

...saw a quote that made me stop and think. It said "Author Unknown," so I can't give credit to anyone, but it has been in the back of my mind lately.

We had a bulletin board at school with pictures of the student's dogs.

On the bulletin board, a quote said:

"One day I hope to be the person that my dog thinks I am."

I realize I'm living out this walk with God thing, but I thought that was really good.


With Jay in it! :-)

A Word From Jay


Jay here. It's been a while since Shortone let me on here, and so I thought I'd write. Well, okay, she has stepped away to go into that weird room where she folds clothes. What is it with you people and clothes? She is ALWAYS doing laundry. Hum...

So, Shortone has been laughing at me a lot lately. I guess I make her happy because sometimes she just walks in the room and laughs at me.

Like the other day when she came out of her bathroom and couldn't find me! She saw that her bed wasn't made anymore, and said my name, and then saw me come out from under the covers! What was so funny about that? I was cold! Then she mumbled something about not making the bed again because she was going to wash the sheets after church that morning. What is it about that room with the loud machines? Seriously...

Then one night she was on her computer and I heard a loud "ping" sound, so I ran to the front door to guard the house and was barking, and Shortone laughed at me! She said something about how it was the computer, not the doorbell. I still barked for several minutes, just to let the person outside know that I meant business! Shortone continued to laugh anyway!

She also laughed at me when we went on a walk the other day. There was this HUGE blue car with two wheels on it, and I barked at it to let it know who was boss! Shortone laughed at me saying there was noone there! I had to guard her anyway! You never know what that two-wheeled machine could do!

I got sick the other day. Shortone was getting ready for work and I hid under her bed because I had puked. I thought she would be mad at me, but she wasn't! She held me, asked me if I was okay, and let me climb back under the bed so I could rest. She is really nice to me.

Uh-Oh--here she comes! Gotta go!


(Isn't that what she does at the end of each one of these?) :-)

A Different Sort of Sunday

Today was day #5 of the current move of God at IHOP-KC. It's amazing to me how much can change in a week.

I got up and went to FCF this morning. We had been told last night that we would have services as usual this morning, with the Outpouring Service tonight. I was glad I went to service.

Tim led worship, and I honestly felt the intensity of worship again. I felt as if I was having a flashback to OneThing last year. It was intense, good, and anointed. I smiled the whole time.

Then Mike Bickle and Lou Engle came out and talked to the IHOP family about what was happening in our midst. I loved the fact that they didn't give themselves or any other staff members credit, but they gave the Lord credit. That was COOL. I also liked that they gave practical rules for what's happening so there is some order in the meetings. I had a deep respect for that too.

There was one comment that particularly spoke to me because I've been struggling with the lack of music in the meetings. We have worship music the first part of the meetings, and then we go into praying for different stuff. You know me, I love to pray, but I miss the Prayer Room where it's constant worship music all the time. I really do.

That being said, someone stated this morning not to get frustrated if you don't think you're receiving anything because you are even if you don't think you are. I'm a gal that gets filled up through worship music, not necessarily through others praying for me. Well, as in laying hands on me. I am a gal that can just sit before Him and get filled up. So that blessed me immensely. It seems obvious, but sometimes someone needs to point out the obvious for you to "get" something.

After soaking a bit, I went back out to drive the shuttle and finish my shift. I tell ya what, last week we only needed 3 drivers to do the shift it was so slow. Tonight we had 7 of us for most of it! It was BUSY.

However, about 6:30 I was able to go into the service. I knew I wouldn't have a seat, but I knew God would give me what I needed. I found a spot on the back wall, sat down, and just soaked. I didn't need prayer, as everything they were praying wasn't for me, so I just sat and sang when it was time to sing. I just soaked. It was GREAT. There was a bit more music than last night during the prayer times, which was better for me. I was glad I went in to service. It filled me up for the week ahead of me.

I left the service and finished out my shift driving. It was fun. I hope to drive some more this week because of the extra services this week.

When God's in control!

Awakening at IHOP-KC

I have spent a significant amount of time thinking about the move of God that's happening at IHOP-KC. It's exciting, in so many ways. There have been ten years of prayers that have gone up to lead to this season in the history of IHOP-KC. I know, I know, some of you are going to tune out now because I'm talking about IHOP. That's cool. However, for those of you who are still reading...

I went to service tonight and it was FUN. I am always touched when God's Kids worship together. And, honestly, there is a new level of hunger there. In fact, Karen and I were just talking last weekend before the Holy Spirit moved in like this, about how "normal" most of the congregation is with the level of worship that is present there. However, tonight it was intense again. FUN.

I don't have a big testimony of healing or anything like that. BUT, for the first time since Onething last year, I enjoyed intense worship again! Woop!

I can't wait to see what God has in store for us as an IHOP family in the coming days and weeks.

Somehow I doubt it will be boring! :-)

Especially when God's on the move! :-)

An Unusual Outpouring of the Spirit

I got a text this afternoon from Papa Bear, the man who God has put in charge of the Shuttle Ministry at IHOP-KC. He asked if I could drive ANYTIME today for the "Unusual Outpouring of the Holy Spirit" that is taking place at IHOP-KC. I found that interesting since I had already planned to go to the Prayer Room tonight. I said sure, but I wanted off early enough that I could go in an soak in the service.

So, I got there at 6:45-ish and took over for a driver. I started driving, and was AMAZED at what was happening. Almost all of the parking spots were full in the various lots (something I had never seen there) and we were BUSY. I mean, people were lined up to ride the shuttle to FSM. (I should mention here that we don't typically have services on Thursday evenings) I had full shuttles to get over there. The main Prayer Room was closed and the 24/7 was moved to FSM. It was incredible to see people getting on and off the shuttles after being touched in the service. I heard "I just got hammered" three separate times! It was cool.

After my shift, I went into the service for about 30 minutes. And, I will say that I've been in a lot of services over the years, but tonight was unlike anything I had ever been in. It was something I will never forget. I would have stayed later, but I came home so I could get my homework done. (It's done now, don't worry!)

I am interested to see what God has in store for us as an IHOP family this weekend. It's clear He's up to something.

And I'm SO EXCITED that I'm here for a time such as this! Sweet!



It's amazing to me that I can enter in to the prayer room via the net. I'm not gonna lie, today was tough on SO MANY levels, and then I came home, opted for PJ's and the Prayer Room via the net. I needed a touch. My school is not a Christian School, and today I saw the depth of that. I knew I just needed God. And, here in my kitchen, I encountered Him. SWEET.

The Prayer Room is currently praying for the Church of KC. I love that! I have been burdened all week for the church, and now they're praying for it! Ah, amazing stuff!


An Ache for God's Kids

On Saturday Night I went to a service that was quite a bit different than IHOP. Right before I went, my friend Karen and I discussed the scripture that talks about "My children shall perish for lack of knowledge..." There's more to it than that, but that part of the verse gripped me as we spoke.

My Children.

Not the world...My Children...

Then we went to service.

For the first time in quite a while, I sat in the back of a service during ministry time and interceded for the people in the service. I didn't go up for prayer. I didn't go up to prophesy. I sat in the back and prayed.

I was in a room full of people who knew they needed a touch from God. Otherwise, they wouldn't have been there.

I think in our society people are hungry for a touch. A touch of anything.

This isn't new to me. I've watched people over the years fill the void with things other than the Lord. I get that.

But, when I sat there and watched people run to a person and not Jesus, my heart sank.

And since then, I have had a new burden for God's kids.

I encountered God over the weekend. Not at that service, but at other services, and I know how that can change a person.

I want everyone to meet God like that.

Not just in a "Yeah, I know God," but in a "Yeah, guess what happened to me! Listen to what God did in my life" kind of way. That's why I love to drive the shuttle. I get to hear that!

So, I will continue to pray....and pray...and pray...



I have felt different today. All day. The kids even noticed it.

That's what happens when you encounter God over the weekend.




Tonight I sit here, absolutely in awe of the friendship God has given me in Karen. It's God. Not her. It's God.

I am closer to God tonight because of our conversations this weekend.


Absolutely priceless.




Retreat was cool.
The weather today was cool.
Having Karen here is cool.
Eating at Olive Garden was cool.
Going to service tonight was cool.
Eating at IHOP was cool.
Now going to bed sounds cool.


What can I say?

I love to see God move in a corporate setting. I mean, I REALLY enjoy it! I was on the worship team again tonight, and was enormously blessed by watching others get touched by the Lord. People were set free of stuff, and others simply encountered Him in a new way! IT WAS AMAZING!

I can't wait to see what He does tomorrow!



The Difference a Day Makes

Tonight I went to the first session of a Women's Retreat held for various leaders throughout The Missouri Prayer Network. It's a private retreat, and when I was invited earlier this week, I was somewhat surprised, as I rarely do things with that organization. I like the group of ladies, and two of my Spiritual Mentors are involved with it, which is how I was invited.

So tonight I got there and started to enter in, and Regina walked up to me and said, "If you would like, we have bongos up there for you to play." I smiled. I had seen them, but didn't know who was playing them. So, I went up and entered in.

And honestly, it felt GREAT to play again. I haven't played since I moved here, and it was FUN. I just smiled and played, and loved every second of it. It was EXACTLY what I needed tonight. It got my focus off me, and on the Lord again, which is where it needs to be.

Then Regina preached. Oh my gosh, if there was ever a sermon for me, that was it! I was convicted. Deeply convicted.

Last night I was saddened by a situation. Which is okay, God is okay with me processing stuff.

However, there was this guy who was beaten, carried a cross, hung on a cross, and died.

Hum...makes my day yesterday seem INCREDIBLY trivial. Little. Nothing.

Conviction is a good thing, and exactly what I needed tonight. Praise the Lord!

I get to play bongos again tomorrow and Saturday!


When you get your focus off yourself and onto the Lord!

Sometimes in Life...

...we lead with our hearts, take a risk, and get hurt.

Today that happened to me. And honestly, while I sit here with a headache, I'm not sad that God made me like this.

I have been told I am too softhearted. And in a sense, that is true.

But, the way I see it, I'd rather get in the game and play the best I can and get hurt, than to play it safe and never get hurt.

I've decided it's not like me to play it safe.

I'm the kid that played football with the boys as the only girl as the quarterback because I couldn't run very fast. It's amazing how well I can throw a ball! :-)

I'm also the gal that supported two people in my last chapter in my life, with nothing in return except a broken heart.

Within that, I decided life is too short to not risk getting hurt.

I mean, one person has a college degree, and one almost has one, thanks to my support.

I did the right thing, even though it hurt more than anything.

And honestly, today was nothing in comparison to that.

I guess "perspective" is still the key.

And for today, I played the game and got hurt.

And tomorrow, I will play it again. And while I may get hurt, I'd rather take a risk than sit on the sidelines and never play at all...

Even when you get hurt playing the game.

An Answer to Prayer

So, I have been praying fervently for a friend here in Lee's Summit that is strong in the Lord, and I feel God is answering that prayer. While it's not a friend that I could call and go to the movies with, it is a friend who now calls with prayer requests, and I do the same with her. It's a start. Her family has also offered to watch Jay if I ever need a weekend dog sitter. And tonight, that is an answer to prayer.

Thank You, Lord!


And the Results Are In....

So, today it was official.

Crankyparent is staying in my school. Well, okay, her daughter is staying in my school.

She had put in for a transfer, had it granted, but stopped it because the other school doesn't offer what I can give her daughter.

In a weird way, it seems like justice has been served.

I know that's not what I should say. However, this parent is big on creating drama.

So a small portion of me is glad she didn't get the transfer because God can use this in her life to show her she can't bully everyone and get her way.

Of course, this means more documentation to cover myself.

But, the coolest part is that a kid will have me giving 110% everyday so that she can be successful.

And that's what really matters.


Bein' Real

Tonight's post is short, as I am wiped tonight.

I am a bottler. I tend to bottle thoughts and emotions inside and tell others, "I'm GREAT."

Well, I have made a breakthrough. I have finally been really real with God on some issues, and my head hurts. For the first time since I've been here, God and I have gone deep in stuff, and I feel better than I have in a while. The knot in my right shoulder is diminishing.

So for those of you in my little corner of the world, please pray for me.

God and I still have A LOT to process through together. Which is good, it just takes time.

For now, I'm calling it a day.

Especially when you let out what is inside of you in prayer!