Smilin' in the GPR!!!

This afternoon before I went up to school to get my paperwork done, I looked online to see what the Prayer Room schedule was for tonight. I already knew two of my favorite worship leaders were on tonight, but I wasn't sure what time. When I looked at it, it stated that my three favorite leaders were scheduled for tonight!!! I was THRILLED. After getting my work done, I headed to the Prayer Room.

Misty's set was first, and I really enjoyed it. It was slow and intimate. I always love her sets!!!

The next team was Matt's, and we went into intercession for Human Trafficking. I find it amazing how I go through different seasons. Sometimes I love the slow sets, and others I love intense stuff. Tonight I LOVED Matt's intensity. There was a phrase that I LOVED back in 2003, and he brought it back tonight. I was grinning ear-to-ear! LOVE. IT.

The last set I stayed for was Jaye's. Cory was on the team, but Jaye led tonight. I just grinned ear-to-ear the whole time. I still find myself thinking "I can't believe I'm here!" I grinned the whole time.

I worked hard this past school year and it feels WONDERFUL not to have homework of any kind. I can go to the GPR, without work to be done!!!

Ahhhhhhhhhhh, I love Summer!


A Time Such As This

You ever think about life? I know, I know, sure you have. But, I mean, have you ever thought about how you're on Earth, today, right now? I mean, you could have been born 200 years ago, before cars, electricity, TV's, internet, air conditioning, heat (as we know it today), telephones, texting, dishwashers, washers, or dryers. While the list could go on and on and on, you get my point. In today's society, we rely so much on technology, that I can't imagine life without it. I remember a few years back when an ice storm went through the area I was living in and people lost electricity for days or weeks. While I didn't lose electricity for more than a couple hours, it made me begin to think about life as we know it.

I have often pondered the depth of the fact I was born for "a time such as this." The more I ponder it all, the more blessed I feel. When I hear reports of the economy fluctuating, or gloom and doom news reports, I think to myself, "Okay, God, you put me here and knew I could handle this with you, so please show me what to do."

I am living in a time in history when teachers are losing jobs due to the economy. TEACHERS. I was convinced I was going into a field with job security for life. What I am seeing around me shows me otherwise. I thought moving to the big city would ensure me of job security even more than where I was at, while in fact the opposite is happening. It definitely makes me stop and think.

I also think about how college doesn't prepare you for everything. No one could have prepared me for a season of singleness that has lasted this long. That being said, God knew I could handle it. In so many ways, I think Jay is better than a spouse, as it's low stress and a lot of laughter. Based upon my walk with God and what I have seen in my years of being single, I realize the importance of waiting for who God has for me. The good news is that God is CONSTANTLY strengthening me in the midst of this society where being single isn't the norm. God knew I could do this! That makes me smile.

I am also living in a time in history where I have more divorced parents of the students in my classroom than married ones. I have to look up each student's information before I call them because I have to make sure I'm calling the right parent that has custodial rights, and that I call them by their current married name because last names rarely match anymore. Even today, it often makes me scratch my head and go "huh?"

With all this being said, I am also living in a time in history where I am blessed to have a Prayer Room to go to and be strengthened and encouraged in what matters most to me. Tonight I went to service, drove shuttles, and wound up in the Prayer Room. In the Prayer Room I am challenged, encouraged, and inspired. There are other people on this planet who are hungry like me, and want to go deeper in Him. I am fortunate to be able to spend this Summer in the Prayer Room and Awakening Services. Yes, this world is challenging, but it's good to know that there is Someone I can talk to, and somewhere to go where I feel at home. The part that blows my mind is that God knew I would be in the Prayer Room before I was even born!

God knew I would be here for a time such as this. I was born for this time in history. Today. Now. One hundred years from now, I wonder what people will be saying about this time in history. With technology changing so rapidly, it makes me wonder what they will laugh about. Something tells me the phrase "You had a Wii? That's SO OLD!" will be said. No telling what else they will laugh about.

God could have created me for any time in history, but He chose to put me here now. While I'm 37 and still have a lot of life to live, I feel blessed to be here now. As I sat in the Prayer Room tonight, I told God I want to be His vessel during this time in history so that everyone who meets me, meets Him.

I am blessed to be here now. For a time such as this...



You ever have a day where you can't focus on one single thing? Where your mind is racing, but you don't need it to be? That was my day today. It was a good day, just odd. It isn't like me to be like this at all. Perhaps sleep will help. Afterall, it is one of my FAVORITE things to do! *grin*


A Day To Remember

It seems as if it was more than a day ago that Jay woke me up for the last day of school. Jay now sleeps on top of my bed, and it was a blessing today because my alarm went off and I didn't move a muscle! I woke up about ten minutes late to Jay standing on top of me! I guess he knew I would be in trouble if I slept any longer. *grin*

Once I made it to school, Rockstarpara and I got caught up. Her family could be cast in a Made-For-TV-Movie, so it's always a joy to laugh with her first thing in the morning because she ALWAYS has a story to share. Truthfully, I think she has a gift to laugh even in the midst of challenges. Truth be told, I think I'm going to miss her more than anyone else this Summer. She's been a real blessing to me, as well as the little people. SERIOUSLY.

Once the morning bell rang, the little people started bringing me gifts. Sweetgirl brought me a 42 ounce bag of M&M's! I was grinning ear-to-ear! Ralph brought me a sweet card and a tin of life-savers mints! I LOVED that! SecondgradeJewel brought me tea, a pitcher, and Peanut M&M's. While Peanut M&M's are not my favorite, it was definitely the heart behind it that mattered most. *grin*

Perhaps the most touching gift came from Blondekid. Blondekid's Mom called me this morning to thank me for all the hard work I've put into teaching her son. While this isn't the first kind phone call this parent has given me, it was a memorable one nonetheless. She went on to say that last night on the drive home from somewhere, Blondekid told his Mom out-of-the-blue that he has decided what he wants to be when he grows up. You guessed it, he wants to be a teacher! Of course, his Mom followed with, "Well, son, you need to learn how to spell then!" I cracked up when I heard that! She went on to say that Blondekid was afraid he wouldn't see me today because I had told the kids that they would be with their classes today for the end-of-year festivities. I told her I was going to head down to his classroom after the assembly to see him. She said he had a gift for me. She also said that Blondekid knew I was going to a camp this Summer and wanted me to go to Boy Scout Camp with him. I laughed and told her that I was only doing one camp this Summer, but it was sweet that he thought of me! I did make it down later for my gift, and he gave me a crayon box that he made me in Boy Scouts. On the inside he dedicated it to me and wrote, "You are my favrite tearter." Well, while spelling will remain at the top of my priority list for Blondekid, it was VERY touching for me! *grin*

Another touching moment came about 11:30 when I was in my room taking care of a few things and Smartkid came in to say good-bye. He walked in crying!!! I went over and hugged him and reassured him that he could ALWAYS come back and visit. I walked him back up to the office to meet with his Mom, who also gave me a hug and thanked me. I hugged Smartkid before he left. He will be at Middle School next year, and I will miss him greatly.

After dismissal, WorshipLeaderGuy called and invited me for dinner at his house with the family! (They cheered since Summer had officially started at noon!) I accepted and worked hard this afternoon to get everything done. While I don't have EVERYTHING done, I don't have ANY papers to grade OR lessons to plan this weekend!!! I will go back up either tomorrow or Monday to get everything finished, but there isn't a whole lot left. *grin*

After walking Jay tonight, I relaxed a bit. I had a headache and just needed to rest. About 8:30, I turned to Jay and said, "Okay, I am going to Awakening." I knew I wanted to go since this was my first night of break!!! I am glad I went too. Cory was leading worship when I got there, and I LOVED it. I am so excited about this Summer. It has been a dream of mine to be on staff at IHOP and while that isn't what I'm called to do yet, I do get a Summer to go and soak and serve as much as I feel led. I stayed at Awakening tonight until 11pm, and I told God as I was walking out that I am excited about this Summer. I feel like my lamp is empty, and I look forward to having it filled this Summer and growing closer to Him in the process.

On the drive home, I was pondering how it feels like I just moved here. When I moved here, I knew it was the right thing to do. I was nervous, but I knew it was the right thing to do. Sitting here on my first night of Summer Break, I thank God for putting me here. Opening a new school is A LOT of hard work, and while I'm WIPED tonight, I'm glad I did it.

And while there are still days I miss my friends at my old school so much that I fight tears, I'm glad I'm here.

I am home.


Summer Break Eve

I have spent the majority of my day on the computer. Part of my job involves keeping data and creating reports based upon that data. Today I spent the day entering in data and printing a report out for each student. In fact, I brought my school laptop home and finished about ten minutes ago. While I'm not completely done because I need to print several reports at work and get everything in the Special Education Folders, I am PROBABLY going to be done tomorrow!!! *grin*

Rockstarpara has taken down all my posters, bulletin boards, etc. There isn't anything left for me to pack up. I am blessed to have Rockstarpara in my life. Not only has she helped with the room, but she has provided entertainment for me and made me laugh when I needed a breaks at just the right time. Even in my most stressed moments, I remained cheerful because I had someone beside me laughing with me.

So this time tomorrow night I will be on break. I am so excited! After tomorrow I won't need to wake up to an alarm, and can cuddle with Jay EVERYDAY before my day begins.

Well, of course until August. But, we're not going to think about that, are we? *grin*



Out at camp, the last night with campers we have something called Cross Carry, followed by Say-So. Cross Carry honors what Jesus did for us, as well as past campers who have gone on to be with Jesus. It is rather emotional, and a night that I ALWAYS remember because of the emotion.

You would think Cross Carry would be the most memorable part for me, but it's not. After praying at Cross Carry, we walk down to the tennis courts, the campers (who want to) line up to thank the staff or their CIA's for all the hard work that they had put in that week to help them.

I remember the first year I went, we had a tough camper. She was sweet, but tough. The week would have been easy if this girl had been motivated to do ANY activity there. She fell asleep at the parking lot by the horses because she was tired and didn't want to ride the horses. I was bummed. It was the first year for me to be there, and instead of taking pictures and laughing with everyone, I was sitting by the camper with the CIA while she slept. I could go on and on, as this camper confused me. She went to camp for a week, and didn't do A THING that week. (She's autistic, but high functioning.)

So, that year Cross Carry and Say-So were moved inside due to rain. I remember feeling a tad nervous because I had no idea what it all looked like or what was going to happen. Cross Carry was amazing, and then we moved upstairs for Say-So.

As you might have guessed, ToughCamper went up and got in line. I must admit, I was skeptical due to her actions that week. When she got to the mic, she thanked all of us by name for all of our hard work, and admitted that she was a tough camper. I remember in that moment when we all looked at each other and said, "Okay, that makes all that hard work worth it." It was a memory that is forever part of me.

Today, after a rather stressful day, I had two people comment to me in such a way that I thought, "Oh, that makes this year worth it." Not that it takes people to realize I'm doing what I'm created to do, because I know God crafted me specifically to do my job. However, sometimes when you hear encouraging words from the person you least expect, it helps turn a somewhat frustrating perspective into a positive one. For that to happen today for me was a gift from God.



It Hit Me Today...

It Hit Me Today...

...that I turned in my last set of Lesson Plans for the year yesterday!!!



One Week from Tonight...

...I will be on Summer Break. Well, okay, it officially begins after I "check-out" with my administrator at my school. My goal is for that to be Friday afternoon. I have never had everything done in time for me to walk out on that day, but I am working hard to make that happen.

It's not that I hate my job, because I really do like it. I am just in need of a break. For the past ten years, I have taught every Summer. Well, for the month of June, and I've had July off each year. This year though, I feel different. As if I REALLY need a break from the classroom in order to come back fresh in the Fall.

Perhaps its because I have had a REALLY big caseload this year. God has graced me this year, but I feel weary. I feel like a Summer of the Prayer Room, Awakening Services, walking the dog, and reading books will do some good!!! Gosh I can't wait...


One week from tonight I get to be in the Prayer Room, and stay as late as I want because I won't need to be at work the next day!

I. Can't. Wait.



In August 1999, I stepped into my very first classroom as a teacher. I was assigned to CF to teach First Grade. I had already done my Special Education Practicum, but that didn't count because it was 20 days of Summer School with two other teachers. It wasn't the same thing.

I was 26 years old, and I can honestly say I didn't have a clue as to what I was doing. Looking back, I think I learned more than the students during that semester.

In that classroom, I had two boys who built my character. Their names were Jemal and Mike. I can distinctly recall Jemal hiding under the table at one point while the kids were lined up, and praying in my head because my cooperating teacher was gone and I had no clue how to handle him. To be honest, I can't remember how he got out from under the table. Mike was a good kid, he just had a temper that had to be controlled at times. Honestly, I can't recall a specific thing that I did to connect with the two boys while they were in first grade, all I know is that we connected.

I had the pleasure of having them in my classroom in second, fourth, and fifth grades as the Special Education Teacher. I was close with all those students by the time they left my school and went on to Middle School. I lost touch with most of them, but Jemal and Mike continued to drop by every once in a while and let me know what was going on in their lives.

Jemal dropped off the radar once he hit High School. I continued to pray for him, and was honestly hoping he would just graduate High School. I knew it would be a challenge for him, but I always knew he could do it.

Mike and I stayed in touch. I was given an award by a local car dealership in town due to an essay he wrote about me. (He also got $50 if I remember right!) Mike helped me move last Spring and Summer as well. He has grown into a fine, young man. He has joked with me for years that I would get a Graduation Ticket, and today I got to see him do just that!!!

Both Mike and Jemal graduated today!!! And, for the first time in my life I had a life experience of what PROUD really means. I hear and say it a lot, but today I understood it for myself. Jemal came over and hugged me and said he was probably headed into the Army. I am cool with that, as long as it TRULY makes him happy. As for Mike, he is headed to play football at a college and is majoring in Teaching Special Education. According to his Mom, he spent a lot of time helping out this year in the Special Education Room at the High School and really enjoyed it.

Mike joked today that they weren't in jail...he said that because I told them both in fifth grade that I wanted to see them graduate, NOT WIND UP IN JAIL!!!

I am happy for both of them. I look forward to hearing what WONDERFUL things they do with their lives. Mike promised I would hear from him as he comes through to head to college up North.




The time right now is 12:02, and my Birthday is officially over. I will say, it was a very nice day, and as I sit here and reflect on it, I am reminded of how incredibly loved I am.

I started the day cuddling with Jay. This is my favorite Saturday Morning activity, and I got to bond with the little furry kid before the day began! I loved that!

I went and met my family for lunch at Zio's and had a GREAT time. (We won't dwell on the fact I made two bad turns and got stopped by a train on the way, and was 45 minutes late for my own Birthday Lunch!) I received some very nice gifts but the best part was just hanging out with my family. It is really nice to live this close and be able to share my Birthday with them again. For ten years I lived two hours away, so it's nice to be close again.

I came home and did some cleaning since the Springer Resort will be open on Tuesday. It felt good to get that done!

I was hanging the lovely wall hangings that I received as gifts today when my phone rang. SingingGal called and wished me a Happy Birthday and asked what I was doing tonight. Long story short, we decided to hang out tonight! She came over and we took Jay for a walk around the lake and had a GREAT time. It is always fun to just sit and talk with SingingGal. We tend to laugh A LOT and just simply enjoy hanging out. It was the highlight of my day!

After she left, I spent some time on Facebook and replied to all my Birthday Greetings. After I was done, I counted them up. There were 90 of them! I looked at all of them, and was amazed at how the greetings represented different seasons of my life. Some of them are current relationships, and some go back as far as ten years of friendship, not counting family. (Although, Ms. H. gets the award for the longest friendship with me!) And, I realized how loved I am. I am blessed beyond words. And, that my friends, is the best birthday gift of all!

37 Years Young! LOVE. IT.


Leaky Bucket Lady

Tonight I am ABSOLUTELY exhausted, but it was a REALLY fun day. Today was the First Annual SVE Fitness Fun Day! I was one of the people in charge of Leaky Buckets. I had third and fourth graders who came with their class to my station in fifteen minute increments. It was basically a relay race with buckets with holes in them. They had to carry the bucket down to the trash can that was full of water, fill it, and carry it back to the bucket for their team. They were allowed to hold the bucket over their heads and get themselves wet, but could not get anyone else wet. It was HILARIOUS to watch! I expected to be soaked as well, but I remained fairly dry. I had packed a bag with other clothes, but never used them. The kids LOVED it!!! Of course, leave it to kids to get soaked at 9:15am! I was thinking, "Oh the days of youth where you enjoy being soaked and will be soaked all day and don't care."

After lunch we had a kickball game between the 6th graders and the staff. I was the third base referee! It was fun! The teachers won, and it was full of events that we won't forget. (Some of the kids who got teachers out were incredible athletes!)

It was a joyous day, and while I am tired now, it was really fun!

I had only one thought at the end of the kickball game: 4.5 days!



IEP Goal

Shortone will be able to walk out of her school building on May 28th, with all responsibilities fulfilled, and leave the school until August, with 100% accuracy.



God Knew...

Almost everyday I am in awe of God's perfect timing and how He puts people together at just the right moment. Today I had one of those moments.

I had a meeting with a parent of one of my fine, quality, students. The parent is a wonderful gal who is genuinely trying to do what is best for her child. I had put quite a bit of prayer into today's meeting, as I knew what I wanted to say, but I knew that the delivery had to be His words, not mine. Otherwise, it wouldn't work.

As it turned out, it all fell into place perfectly. The parent appeared to be making the kid's disability a DISABILITY. I was able to share a bit of my story, and ENCOURAGE her with some ideas to help her child through the challenges that are ahead of him. My goal for this kid to have the disability be part of him, but not ALL of him. The parent was VERY receptive and while I don't expect changes overnight, I think it was a step in the right direction.

It all leads me back to the sermon I heard a few weeks back where I was challenged with the thought, "What if your purpose in life is for someone else to see Jesus in you? Are you okay with that?" Today I really feel that God put me there for that gal. I also feel He made me with CP to help the family of that fine, quality student.

God knew I would be in that room with that gal before I was even born. *grin* I LOVE THAT!!!


Alegria=Wow! Wow! Wow!

A few weeks back I discovered that Alegria was coming to KC. I was immediately excited because I have enjoyed Cirque Du Soliel Shows for YEARS. The Summer I turned 21 my Dad and I went to Las Vegas for four days. While riding the bus system (Something I have zero desire to do again) a man was wearing a Mystere shirt. Neither of us had even heard of Mystere, or Cirque. My Dad asked the guy about Mystere, and the guy said something like, "If you don't see this show, you're missing the best show out here." Needless to say, we bought tickets, not knowing A THING about it. I still remember sitting there, and prior to the show and the nutty professor was stealing people's hats and popcorn, and laughing like crazy! This afternoon was very similar.

While there wasn't a professor, there was a clown and a side-kick who provided humorous entertainment in-between the INCREDIBLE acts. They had the trampolines (one of my personal favorites!), fire throwers, and HIGH trapeze/throwing people act, as well as several other acts. It was INCREDIBLE.

As I sat there this afternoon, I laughed a lot, and the word I kept repeating was "Wow!" They always make it look SO EASY. In reality, I know that they work at it to make the show spectacular! I just kept saying "Wow!" It was a show where I enjoyed every second!

Since that trip to Vegas with my Dad, I have now seen 5 different Cirque shows. I've seen Dralion, Quidam, O, Mystere, and now Alegria. Amazing stuff. I know the tickets aren't cheap, but if you have ever a chance to see a show, I HIGHLY recommend it. It is worth EVERY penny!!!

I told my Mom as we were driving away, it made me want to see "Mystere" again. *grin* I say that after EVERY Cirque show. I guess Mystere will always be my favorite, but it's fun to join the other shows and see what else they can come up with for an act. Amazing...


Speakin' Up...softly...

I was in a meeting a little while back on a student at our school, and hesitated sharing my concerns during the meeting. Looking back, I'm not really sure why I hesitated, but I did. So, as my concerns for this student have grown over the past few weeks, I sent an email to the team, just sharing my concerns. I wasn't mean or rude, I just wanted my voice to be heard. In the email I even stated that I regretted not speaking up in the meeting. So today we had a meeting on the student, and it was good to hear everyone's perspectives. And, it was good that we did it in person because it was clear that a few of them misunderstood where I was coming from. Going into it, I knew that it may very well be a situation where I would share my thoughts and may not change anything, but I knew that I had to say something. I figured I had to at least try.

In the end, my voice was heard and was backed up by another team member! I feel that the kid will be getting what is needed!!!

I sure am glad I spoke up...softly. I knew that if I had been rough about it, it wouldn't have changed a thing.

Softly though, it made a difference.



"What's Wrong with YOU?"

Okay, so tonight I used my filter when I really wanted to go off on someone. Hard to believe, I know, but it's true. The gal nicknamed "Pleasant" on shuttles wanted to go off on someone. Go ahead, think awful things about me, I'm okay with that. However, after you hear my reason, I doubt you will.

First I will tell you what happened:

I took a break from driving shuttles to go inside and use the restroom. After using the restroom and washing my hands, I was walking out when this lady walked up to me, got in my face, and said, "What's wrong with you?" I looked at her and simply said, "Nothing is wrong with me." To which she looked at me and looked down at my leg and I said, "Nothing is wrong with me. I was just born with Cerebral Palsy." She just looked at me and said "Do you want me to pray for you or not?" To which I just looked at her, thought horrible thoughts, and said, "sure." She prayed a short prayer and I walked away MAD!

Now, in my rational, mature thoughts, I believe the following things:

1. This person most likely was in a class like the one I teach today when she was a child. She had a speech problem and obviously lacked social skills. She also didn't appear to be cognitively with it.
2. She wasn't at FCF the day Mike preached about healing and how to pray for healing for others. Otherwise, she would have known how to do it right.
3. I'm in an environment where healings happen nightly, so it does make sense that she wants me to be healed. Someone walked out of a wheelchair last week, and nothing is impossible with God.

In my honest, unfiltered response, here is what I wanted to say to her:

NOTHING is wrong with me! I am a perfectly capable human being that can do everything you can do! I may walk differently than you, but God is using me JUST LIKE THIS! I'm not being "healed" as you call it would not make my life "better." I walk differently is all!!! Yes, I get tired sometimes and fall down, which I'm sure you do too. Yes, I walk slowly, but I'm fine with that! The people who truly care about me don't care how fast I walk! And by the way, the students I teach "get" me because I can relate to them in a way YOU could not. By the way, they have more compassion for someone who simply walks differently than you are showing me in this moment of wanting me "Healed". I also live on my own, pay my own bills, walk my dog daily, and drive a standard car. I don't even have a "handicapped" license plate. I'M NOT DISABLED!!! God knew I would be a Rockstar at having CP (As Ms. H. said once!) and is using it DAILY in the lives of those around me. So, no, don't pray for me! I'm whole as I am! From now on, use more tact when asking if someone wants prayer, because I am offended by the way you approached me and thought my life is less satisfying than yours just because I have a limp! My life is GREAT. And honestly, the limp is part of me, not all of me. SERIOUSLY...

Ah, I feel better. Are you thinking awful things about me now? Well, rest assured, I know I would NEVER say that to anyone. This gal is one of God's kids, so I know better than to tear someone down. But I will admit, I do feel better. *grin*



This week has been amazing. I have felt the love from so many people this week. I have gotten amazing gifts such as gift cards, M&M's, Pepsi, and a MASSAGE. (The massage was amazing by the way, if you ever need a gift idea for me...*grin*) While ALL this was great, none of those "things" were my favorite thing I received.

Today one of my students came in with a card and M&M's for me. The boy started the year on a rocky note, and I spent a lot of time helping him adjust to the new school due to his anxiety. It took work for me to get through to him, but once I did he changed into an AMAZING kid. While he often builds the character of others, he is no longer a character-builder for me. Here is the letter HE wrote. Not his Mom or Dad...he wrote it:

Dear Ms. Spring,

I know I've only known you for a year, but it seems like I have known you forever. But now, thoes days are over. And I'm going on to middle school. But at least you'll have youngerbrother for four more years. You're the best teacher in the world!


And that is why I do my job!

The card is now in my entertainment center on display! *grin*



Feelin' Appreciated!!!

This week has been amazing. In case you're outta the loop, this week is "Teacher Appreciation" week. In the past, I have had good TAP weeks, but not like this year.

The Paras chipped in and got me M&M's, a card, and Pepsi! Love. It.
RockStarPara gave me a COOL card and a LIfeIsGood gift card! *grin*
Benji brought me Pepsi and M&M's. *grin*
Another student's Mom dropped off a flower for each of us who work with her son.
My principal and her secretary brought us COOL Lanyards that have SVE Janguars on it!
We've had plenty of sweets in the lounge. Our PTA ROCKS!
Oh, and tomorrow I get my ten minute massage. *grin*

I definitely feel appreciated this week!

You know, it's amazing, all of this stuff is just stuff. Little stuff. But, it honestly doesn't take much to make teachers happy. Seriously. Everyone should be so easily blessed.


Not A Typical Woman

I have given today's post months of pondering, and while I'm not at my final conclusions on the topic, I find it's relevant to share tonight.

When I was younger, my Dad and I went for a drive every once in a while. Sometimes I liked our topics of conversation, and other times I felt my character was built as my Dad taught me life's tough lessons. Today I'm SO VERY THANKFUL that my Dad and I had every conversation that we did, as it has shaped me into a stronger person who ponders those chats today as an adult.

The one I have been pondering lately is how not to be a typical woman. Now before you go thinking negative things in that statement, let me explain it to you. I have been pondering (as my Dad and I have discussed over and over and over again) how women are typically gossipers, seeking knowledge about things that really have little to nothing to do with them. Over and over again I have witnessed women who are wonderful gals, but you put them in a group of women and they are quickly judging and speaking ill of one another, when the next moment that person will walk in and be all nice to them. To be honest, that bugs me. I realize that insecurity plays a significant role in how women talk, but I think it's sad when there are zillions of other things to talk about, and yet when women get together it's often negative instead of positive. That bugs me.

At work I find myself praying quite a bit (In my head of course, not outloud.) because I see this happen over and over and over again. Honestly, none of them appear to be vicious in their words, yet judgement is loud and clear. So, I've set my own IEP goal for myself not to participate in those discussions. I'll be honest, that has taken effort because I find myself around those chats often, and I want to tell people to change the topic but I know that isn't my place.

I often find myself very casually trying to bring the positive into a conversation when negative is rampant. While it doesn't always change the course of the chat, I know I'm doing what's right for me. I have thought several times that it's no wonder that it says in James to Tame the Tongue. Just in what we say can ruin our own reputation or one of someone around us.

While I don't have this figured out completely, I thought that it was a good start to figuring all this stuff out. I do know that I won't want to be typical. I want to be the person that people see as positive, not negative. I often have people curse and then say, "Sorry" to me. That's fine. At least something positive is being shown even in that little gesture.

Tonight as I have pondered this, I have felt enormously blessed to have Laura and SingingGal in my life. They are both women who can easily talk about the other zillion things instead of the negative things in life. And honestly, that means more to me than Gold. No wonder they are at the top of my favorite people list!!!


From Jay!


Jay here. Long time, no post! Well, I am finally feeling well enough to post something! It may not be exciting, but while Shortone is doing chores, I thought I'd write.

Shortone has been really nice to me this weekend because I wasn't feeling well. On Friday Night I threw up a little bit. Shortone just said that she thought it was something I ate and didn't seem too worried. Yesterday I really didn't feel good, and Shortone became more concerned because I wasn't eating, drinking, peeing, or pooping. Shortone said if I wasn't better today, I would have to go see Dr. Placke. So, last night I tried my best but I threw up a few times. Shortone said that after church I would have to go see Dr. Placke if I was still throwing up when she got back. So, before she left I felt a little bit better so I started eating. She prayed over me and left for church. When she returned I felt REALLY good, and peed and ate more and drank more water! Shortone was SO SO SO SO SO SO SO EXCITED. We even went for a walk this afternoon! I felt SO MUCH BETTER! Shortone said she is still keeping a close eye on me, but thinks I am better. I like Dr. Placke, but don't want to go there if I don't have to! They have other dogs there and it scares me!!!

Oh, and Laura came to see me yesterday! It was so much fun! I like her a lot! She always pets me, hugs me, and plays with me! I really like her! She even played the Wii a little bit yesterday and LOVED it! I like it when she comes because she and Shortone get to talk a lot about stuff and they sure do laugh a lot! I know that Shortone thinks Laura comes just for her, but I know better, she really comes to see ME!

Shortone has been saying all day that in four weeks she's on break so she will get to be more home with me more. I am really really excited about that! She says we'll cuddle on the couch everyday before she goes to the Prayer Room, whatever that is. I am REALLY EXCITED!

Uh oh, here she comes! Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, don't tell her I wrote on here!